Mothers day in bed.

I have decided that most of this day will be spent in bed.  It's just not nice enough to drag my ass out.  Perhaps a drink and breakies would be good though.....

Stuff and things

I've been working for several days on bits and pieces to put on either Ebay or my new Etsy page. Not sure which would be the most profitable.



This one make me happy.

This one makes me laugh!!

Oh, dear...just noticed I can see me reflected in the "We're feeling our femine side" one.

Ebay....a curse and a blessing

I have been selling on Ebay on and off for many years now. I have concluded that had I been more diligent in the beginning I might now be one of the "power sellers" thus making the selling of my precious items unnessessary. Meh. I am having sellers remorse today. I put an item for sale that I have had and loved since 2003....my LOTR coin. Why I am allowing myself to feel badly about this I've no idea. It was given as a gift so any monies from it are a plus. And it's not as if it is one of my most beloved items from my LOTR collection....I don't know as I would ever part from my little hobbits or 'sting'....lol. So, yeah, I suppose it is more a feeling of being ripped off as the other coin sales for this item have consistantly sold for higher and when I finally list mine it goes for a pittance. And then the buyer...a coin collector on Ebay asks if I have another as he wants more.

Sheesh dude. Do your own research. You can see the other auctions as well as I and it is not allowable to sell outside of Ebay...they want their cut. What is their cut now? TEN PERCENT. Basturds. Ok, that is the total amount they took because of the insertion fees but really.....wish that I had thought of an online auction years ago....damn. The founders of Ebay must be rolling in it.

Why is it that my little ideas never produce this kind of success? Perhaps I just give up too soon. There's that. And most likely that is the reason. I tend to be impatient when it comes to these things. I want my ideas to flourish like a dandelion on a white trash lawn. Oh...dear....that is probably very un-PC.....lol. But in my defense I am the white trash with the bad lawn....because...who REALLY cares if your lawn looks perfect when you live in the burbs? Oh, yes...the snoots. I was a snoot once...thank god I saw the light. Having that big house with the perfect lawn and perfect toys and perfect, perfect....bleah....what really matters is whether or not you are happy there. I am kind of enjoying the fact that I am now...once again....hanging my laundry on a line to dry. lol Ok...that train of thought didn't really flow smoothly but.....who cares eh? Hopefully, the reader didn't get lost too far up river......

Or should it be DOWN river??

menopause oh menopause how i curse you
you take the brain
that once was sane
and make it hard to pursue.

Last night....

Last night was not a good one. Had one of those emotional breakdowns that I just could not stop. Sobbing and slobbering all over the place. Not pretty. I wish that I could see my way through this mess but sometimes I just get overwelmed with the trudging along. Seems like nothing is pulling together for us....no, that is wrong....the movie is looking like it is going to be the best so far. I am so looking forward to that. It's just the lack of job and lack of money that is scaring me down to my core. I don't know how long we can flounder in this bog.

Even as I write this I know in my heart that there will be an answer, just perhaps not in the way that I have perceived it. I must remember this and when things overwhelm me, pull myself together and keep standing. We have friends who love and support us and that is comforting. Just have to remember that when I feel myself falling.

Ebay Item

Here is one of the items I put on Ebay.

http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=170501803625&ssPageName=STRK:MESELX:IT#ht_500wt_1154

For whatever reason I cannot get the direct link to work from the post but you copy/paste this into your browser. Will do more research on this linking problem. Perhaps I need to study D'ni.

Online Yardsale....

I knew I had a blog out there....turns out I made two but have not posted since 2005..lol Time flies. Anyhoo...I am posting a few pictures of things that I need to sell. If you would like to purchase any or all, post here or email me.

The only way I can get the pictures to load right now is to put them in the sidebar. Not the best but if you click on them you can see the item. I did not post prices, take a look and make an offer.

:D

Ok, slight update. Prices are as follows:

Small cd holder sold
Quilt - sold
Bench/loveseat sold

Thanks!

I have now put two of the items on Ebay. I will ad a link later for those items.

I Hate Reruns

Reruns are the pits. I hate tuning in to see a favorite show only to find that it is a repeat. It's such a let down to hurry about doing your chores and whatnot, settle down onto the couch with the remote in hand, only to find that you are going to see something that you have already viewed. At that point you have to decide whether the repeat show warrants sitting on your ass to watch it again. Was it good enough for a second view? Or are you finding yourself surfing the channels just in case there is something better on. There should be a warning the week before or a message before the repeat starts, "Get up off your ass, you've seen this one"

Happened to me tonight. What did I do? Sat there and watched....for a bit...then I just had to move. I suppose it was beneficial, I was able to load the dishes up and get them started washing. So the rerun helped....sort of.

sometimes we call, sometimes we don't....we need....we want....we lack....but does it matter? where will life lead us? what is the future? love everlasting....god i miss my mother somedays....and my brother...ache in my heart that is so deep it's hard to describe to anyone. deep pool, dark....still....quivering with the breeze....ache that cannot be satisfied by anyone on this earth.

trapped in the web of my own making but do i want to get out?
or am i at peace being tangled up.....

Coldplay sings to me.....

"Oh no, I see
A spider-web is tangled up with me
And I lost my head
And thought of all the stupid things I've said

Oh no, what's this?
A spider-web and I'm caught in the middle
So I turn to run
And thought of all the stupid things I've done

And oh, I never meant to cause you trouble
Oh, I never meant to do you wrong
And oh, well if I ever caused you trouble
Oh, no I never meant to do you harm

Oh no, I see
The spider-web and it's me in the middle
So I twist and turn
But here am I in my little bubble

Singing and oh,
I never meant to cause you trouble
And oh, I never meant to do you wrong
Oh, well if I ever caused you trouble
Oh, no I never meant to do you harm

They spun a web for me
They spun a web for me
They spun a web for me"

started to fix my typing....put capitals in....screw that....it's my little rebellion against society and the capital pigs. who says one letter is better than another and deserves to be different?

back to mom and bro....hope they can see me...hear me.....sometimes i think yes, they can....other times, like tonight, i just feel like it's all a trap....everyone dies and we're all caught in a web.....the spider of death getting closer.....licking it's lips in anticipation of another victim. it just ate two old friends and my dear friend linda is probably next.....unless by some miricle she can escape deaths cold grip. my heart aches for the pain her family are feeling and i feel helpless.....empty of comforting words.